Still doing the building-up-walking thing. I did it in under 10 minutes yesterday! Not that speed is a goal, mind you, but I was keeping a pretty good pace throughout.

I have been doing 1-2 times per day, though, not 2-3 as I said below. I might've done it 3x maybe twice at that writing. BUT I think I need to add a trip.

I really think I've started something. Several people in the office have taken to doing this, and one woman who laughed at the idea of making it above the third floor, told me yesterday that she'd made it to nine! Yay Brenda!

I've continued to walk up the building 2-3 times per day. I feel my knees getting stronger and I'm getting less winded.

Well, I started exercising last week. 1-2 times a day I walk up to the top (9th) floor of my office building. Each floor has stairwells at either end of a 100-yard or so hallway, so I walk up, across, up, across all the way to the top. Today I even went up 2, across, up 2, across. Wish me luck.

I'm going to have to reactivate this blog. I think I quit because I was ashamed of the eating I've been doing. Well, that's what the blog is for, to make me accountable for my eating, warts and all.

Today, I ate warts.

Not really. But I just wolfed down a slab of German Chocolate cake, and I've been eating a piece of cake every day for the last few weeks, in addition to large meals and desserts with dinner. So now I've admitted it. I have a problem eating. I will now start blogging my food again.

Pray for me.

Trouble
Been eating a lot lately. I do mean a lot.

I think I need to work out. I don't know how I'm going to do that.

My priorities are skewy, I think.

I'm doing a lot of stuff that's undeniably positive for myself: my acting and my guitar playing come to mind. I need to do more with the wife and kids, I think.

Family
Guitar
Acting
Writing
Exercise

But how to work these priorities in?

Something of a mental breakthrough today.

I realized that almost all of my overeating is associated with family time.

I ate nachoes for lunch yesterday and enjoyed them, and then went home and without a second thought shoveled in a large dinner.

(Stick with me here)

The nachoes were planned. The dinner was not. In fact, I thought earlier that I would skip dinner. I certainly wasn't hungry.

So, the breakthrough is this: I'm only going to eat very, very lightly while at work.

Last night's dinner:
Spaghetti
Chocolate Cake

Breakfast:
Oatmeal & Raisins
Coffee

Lunch:
Cup of soup
Small salad
Jell-O

Snack Attack:
Chocolate Cake

I need to be careful tonight!

Breakfast:
Oatmeal & raisins
Coffee

Lunch:
Cup of soup
Small salad
Jell-O

Dinner:
Spaghetti
Chocolate Cake

I'll have a bourbon & coke later tonight and that'll be about it.

Exercise Note:
I don't think I'm going back to karate. I'm going to tell Tasha she can take over the membership if she wants. Will is still totally resistant, even after meeting with Mr. Ray last night. I noticed Mr. Ray never "asked for the sale." I wonder if he was waiting for me to do it.

Blogrot?
I've been doing pretty well with my eating...breakfast & lunch as usual, mostly good dinners. I'm not ready to stop using the blog, though.

Last night's Dinner
Scoop of Caramel Cashew Ice Cream in a sugar cone

This was due to having had a nice large mexican lunch. I'd had nachos for lunch Tuesday and a BBQ combo platter for dinner Tuesday, so it was time to re-balance.

Oh, I had a bowl of cereal with Will when he got home from school.

Lunch:
Cup of soup
Coffee
Water

I had two pieces of cake at the birthday gathering! Must eat properly (ie lightly) tonight!

Yesterday's Lunch:
Cup of soup

I also had 3 chocolates from a box of same, and a small slice of pound cake, all courtesy of Brenda, our secretary. So you see, it is her fault if I get fat.

Yesterday's Dinner:
Cheese/Jalapeno Pizza
Lentil Soup
Beer

A friend of mine once gave me some curry powder he'd made. He recommended putting it on lentils, then asked, "You have had lentils, haven't you?"

I replied, "Oh, Tasha loves them. She makes them all the time. You might say she's a real dal-face."

A banana

Breakfast:
Oatmeal w/raisins
Coffee

Birthday Cake this afternoon! Better be good, for goodness' sake!

Yesterday's dinner:
Hamburgers
Chips
Salad
Beer
Oreo Cookies & Milk

Breakfast:
Oatmeal w/raisins
Coffee

Yesterday's lunch:
cup of ramen soup. The picante with shrimp...man, it was good.

Yesterday's dinner:
Leftover fried chicken
Corn on the cob
Salad
Cole Slaw
Oreos
Beer

Breakfast:
Oatmeal w/raisins
Coffee

Lunch:
Cup o' wonton soup
Diet Coke

Breakfast:
A piece of bread pudding. Smallish.

No coffee yet. I'm about to have some.

The weekend was hectic and not too food-filled. I ate a couple bites that I probably wouldn't have if I'd thought I was going to write it down, but really it wasn't too bad.

Dinner:
Same as last night

no ice cream

Chocolate Pie (2 pieces!)

Good thing I didn't do the big breakfast.

Lunch:
Ramen Soup (1/2 brick)
Trusoy bar

Breakfast:
Choco Oatmeal
Coffee
Water

Dinner last night:
Publix Fried Chicken
Mac & Cheese
Baked Beans
M&M's Ice Cream Cone

Publix Fried Chicken is the best. Try it if you haven't.

Snack:
Chocolate Cake

Someone left a cake in the fridge. It was calling my name. So I ate it.

Looking over the week, I think I've been pretty good so I won't worry about it.

Hey, tomorrow is breakfast at CNN. Got to eat accordingly...

Breakfast:
Chocolate Oatmeal

I think I need more fiber. Or something. The d-word strikes again.

Oregon woman thankful after losing 800 pounds

It took a decade to do it, but Jeannette lost between 800 and 850 pounds through healthy eating combined with a liquid diet. At her heaviest, Standard said she weighed nearly 1,200 pounds.
Walker said he charted her weight in 1997 at 600 pounds. Today, she's 5 feet, 2 inches tall and weighs 435 pounds.
"I have more mobility," she said. "I can go to Wal-Mart and buy clothes off the rack. And I can go out with pride without worrying about people saying, 'Look at that fat person.' And I don't have to wear those tent dresses anymore!"

Last night's dinner:
Soup
Hamburger
Salad
Chocolate Pie

Lunch:
Ramen soup (1 serving)
Trusoy bar

Last night's dinner:
Chicken
Soup
Salad
Breadsticks

Potluck at the Joneses!

Breakfast:
Chocolate Oatmeal
Coffee

Lunch:
Nachos
Diet Coke

That's right, no breakfast at all today. Honestly, I just wasn't hungry.

I was ravenous at dinner last night. I ate my chicken plus what Will left plus whatever bits Tasha would give me. So I ate a good big dinner and didn't really need breakfast today.

I was nice & hungry for the nachos though, and I didn't overindulge...only $2.76 worth from the $.23/oz nacho bar.

Last night's dinner:
Grilled Chicken
Salad
Fruit

Giant monster peep ;)

Lunch:
1 serving of ramen soup (cooked in the microwave. It worked pretty well!)

I noticed the package says it contains 2 servings, so I broke the brick and halved the seasoning pack. It held me pretty well.

Snacky:
Orange
2 Dove "Promises"

Breakfast:
Coffee
Cinnamon Biscuit (dreadful .. the icing tasted like candle wax... the biscuit was hard...it was all I could do to eat every bite.)

SUNDAY:
Lunch:
Spaghetti & leftover sloppy joe sauce

Snack:
Jellybeans

Had a banana in there somewhere.

Dinner:
Pizza
Cookies
A beer

Breakfast:
Bagel & CC
Coffee

Lunch:
Popcorn
Guinness Draft
Cadbury Cream Egg
Reeses Peanut Butter Egg

Dinner:
PBJ
Soup
Chips & Salsa
Cookies

Looks ok on the surface I suppose...but I haven't been hungry all day! Just eating and eating.

Dinner:
Sloppy Joe (minus the bun. So I guess that's...chili?)
Mac & Cheese

Had a couple drinks too and a few cookies when I got home from the play. I really wanted to eat after the play; I can't say why?

Lunch:
6 Chicken Wings
Fries
Celery

Here's hoping I can have a good dinner...I might opt out of eating dinner and have a snack at the play.

Breakfast:
Oatmeal w/sugar & cinnamon
Coffee

Snack Attack:
Holy cow. I just ate probably 1/3-1/2 bag of Whopper Easter Eggs and 1/5 bag of Starburst Jelly Beans

Hope that's over with. I feel kinda sick.

Dinner:
Chicken Sandwich
Mac & Cheese
Chocolate Cake
Cream Soda

Rumination from Topfive.com:

I just found an old picture of "fat me" that
I used to carry around as an incentive to stay
on my diet. Unfortunately, now it's a goal.

(Len Wisner)

Lunch:
Ramen Noodle Soup Mix
Water
Mocha Java

Breakfast:
A banana
Coffee
Water

Dinner:
Bean Soup
Toast
Chips & Salsa

a few whopper easter eggs.

OK, there's more easter candy. But there are no more peeps or chocolate.

Snack:
A norange

Lunch:
Trusoy Lemon Protein Bar
Water

My weird character: I have 3 protein bars: a lemon, a peanut butter fudge, and a double chocolate.

I am the only person I know who would do as I did today: eat the lemon (my least favorite) and save the others for another day. It didn't used to be this way. That is, I've always been like this, but I used to know other people who would do the same.

Sometimes I'll save a particularly nice-looking morsel on my plate for last. It is invariably that morsel that gets sniped when a certain someone (my wife, actually) asks for a bite.

I think it bodes well for the enduring power of my marriage that I've learned to give it to her without complaining.

Breakfast:
Hot Chocolate Oatmeal
Coffee
Water

Dinner last night:
Jugged Spaghetti Alfredo w/small amount of Chicken Breast
Row o'peeps, 2 nestle nest eggs.

That's the last of the peeps & chocolate.

Also had a medium whiskey. I was experimenting with it, trying to drink a big ol' honkin' glass of whiskey like they do in Training Day. It was good and I was all loosey goosey afterwards. I need to replenish my Bushmills.

I'd say yesterday was a good day.

Lunch:
Nachos
Water

If I can manage to keep my dinner small--say, 1/2 cup of soup, couple of chips or maybe a pbj--I'll be good.

Breakfast:
Hot Chocolate Flavored Oatmeal
Coffee
Water

(My company provides coffee and hot chocolate and tea. I stir a half envelope of hot choco into my oatmeal and it is good.)

Dinner:
General Tso's Chicken
Steamed Rice
Vegetable Egg Roll
Coke

(That's combo #6! Pretty good for drive-thru chinese.)

Also had a row of peeps and a few nestle chocolate bird eggs.

All in all definitely a good day. I was totally hungry when I bought my dinner (there was a certain amount of stress as MARTA had screwed me over and I was very late getting home).

Oh, and I shared much of General Tso with Tasha!

Oh, and Tasha bought me some protein bars. I'm going to have one of those for lunch tomorrow.

Snack Attack:
Actually, I got a little hungry, so I had an orange.

Lunch:
Ramen Soup
Water

I've munched a few Atomic Fireballs today as well.

Vacation:
Was at St. Simon's Island this week. Eating was not too bad, but not as disciplined as I've been.

Last night's dinner was an eye-opener for me: I had eaten popcorn & candy at the movies with the family, and decided not to eat dinner. Then Tasha put leftover mexican in front of me, and it was vile, and I ate every bite.

I won't say "never again" but I will say that I'll be more aware of what I'm doing.

Breakfast:
Oatmeal
Coffee

Dinner:
Ribs
Cauliflower Souffle
Spanakopita
Rolls
Cake

Candy, candy, candy

All I can say is that I've eaten more.

Lunch:
Cheese grits (not cherry grits. Just plain ol' grits with some cheese in)
Giant bagel (made by Tasha. She's great.)
Reese's egg

I'd better stop and save some room for dinner.

Friday, Saturday: Trip to Birmingham
I logged in on Saturday morning to check my e-mail...Aunt Jewel's dial-up so slow that I didn't really consider updating.

Friday breakfast was not too bad...I had leftover cherry grits (cheese grits from my church's cookbook, which typo'd the title). Tasha says I overate on them. She's probably right.

Friday lunch at Aunt Jewel's...ham, roast beef, potatoes, all smothered in gravy.

I have to say I sort of planned on overeating these days.

Friday dinner was two slices of DiGiorno stuffed crust pizza. It were good.

Saturday breakfast was ham biscuits and eggs.

Lunch on the road was a few bites of an Arby's market sandwich (disgusting, sad to say), a couple chicken fingers, some jalapeno poppers, and a jamocha shake (the fingers and the shake were fine.)

I wasn't hungry.

Snacks of chocky scattered throughout

Dinner at Stevi B's pizza in Covington...a very well-done pizza buffet. The crust was fine. I had two slices plus a dessert slice, and a salad.

I wasn't hungry.

Sunday breakfast
Candy from the kids. Annie is opening candy and giving me the pieces she doesn't like.

I'm not hungry.

Dinner:
Meat Loaf
Cauliflower souffle
Mac & Cheese
Rolls

A bit much, but better than last night, and no sweets!

Lunch:
Cup o' soup

Snack:
Chocolate Cheesecake

I don't feel too bad about the cake, though. I planned for it! I purposely ate lightly at lunch...no sandwich, no chips...so I could have a piece of cake. If I manage to behave during dinner, I'm going to call this a good day.

Snack Attack:
Well, more like a continuation of breakfast, as I considered having this with breakfast:

A banana
Coffee

Last night's scream was cathartic. I think I need to check my normal inclination to regard food as a window into my moral state. Those jellybeans were not a sin; they were an indulgence in a time of stress. I need to find a more effective way of dealing with stress.

Breakfast:
Oatmeal (not QIO -- I bought a thing of quick oats and made me the one-serving size in a bowl. Nice texture, very filling. Oh, I mixed a 1/2 envelope of hot chocolate in it...yummy!)
Coffee

Snack attack:
Starburst Jellybeans

Aaaaaaaaaargh.

Dinner:
Overate again.
Meatloaf
Spanakopita
Rolls

Seconds on all.

Here's the thing: I've got to slow down. I did ok today (except for the second piece of cake) but I wasn't hungry when I sat down to dinner...yet I ate and ate.

I'm under a good bit of stress at home. We're quitting karate, which means we have to speak with Mr. Ray and hope he doesn't stick it to us on our contract (he'll be within his rights but we're hoping he'll be nice about it) so there's moral and monetary stress here. I comfort myself that tomorrow is another day, breakfast and lunch were good, then extra cake and a big dinner...I might be OK...I will be OK...

After yesterday's binge-y lunch and not-too-small dinner & candies, plus today's extra cake, it doesn't surprise me that I wanted to eat some more after the cake. I managed to avoid, though. Man, this is getting harder. Help me, Blogger!

Snack attack
The cake is sitting on the credenza. I had another piece.

Lunch:
1C Chicken/Rice Soup
PBJ
Small sliver of cake

Breakfast:
QIO
Coffee

Exercise update:
Skipped karate last night. Tasha had fought with Will before I got home, and I walked into a war zone. Needless to say, he was resistant to everything. So I went for a walk instead, and took him with. He says he doesn't want to do karate and frankly I'm tired of fighting him over it every time. I'm going to go on my own, though. Tasha talks like she's going to join me, but I don't see us being able to do it together. Maybe we can do it separately.

Cover me, I'm goin' in! After yesterday and last night, I'm really needing to see some hunger before I eat again. I'm thinking about eating now, and I am a little hungry, but nothing major. Plus I need to use the bathroom. I've noticed in the last few months that my morning urgency frequently coincides with the time I normally eat breakfast. I have viewed this as a sign that I needed to hold back on breakfast. I still like that idea.

Dinner:
1/2 C. Cauliflower Souffle
1/2 Baked Potato w/butter & sour cream
Jelly Bellies
Reese's Cups

Better be better tomorrow. I'm glad I was at least able to stop on the souffle & potato.

Milestone:
I was able to fit into my jeans last night! They're still a bit tight, but nothing too horrendously uncomfortable. That's progress, considering I wasn't even able to button them last time I tried them on!

Lunch: (stand back)
Nachos -- I mean a big thing of nachos
Diet Coke
Chocolate Cake -- a whole slice
Coffee

Yum. Back to the grindstone.

Breakfast:
QIO
Coffee
Water

Dinner:
Pizza
Salad
Water
Reese's Cups
Starburst Jellybeans

I will eat only red-hots, and those sparingly, if I have another craving!

Lunch:
Thrifty-Maid Ramen soup cup
PBJ

OK, not fooling myself that that soup cup is any kind of low-fat. It was mighty tasty. 14 (!) grams of fat though...7 saturated, so maybe that's not so bad.

I bought 4 of them for this week's lunch experiment. I added the PBJ to bring up the protein count, as the soup has only 6g. Let's just see how it goes.

Oh, and I bought some Atomic Fireball hard candies for my snack attacks. One of those will end a snack attack pretty quickly, I suspect. I went out looking for red-hots but didn't find them. Considered getting tic-tacs but the fireballs caught my eye. Let's see how it works.

Breakfast:
QIO
Coffee

I intended to get some fruit but forgot. I might have a banana or an orange later this morning.

AND NOTHING ELSE.

Dinner:
Spaghetti w/meat sauce
Salad
Flat Bread

Snack
Chips & salsa
Cheesy poofs
Margarita

(On the back porch with Dave & Barbara. Nice.)

Lunch:
Cheese Grits
Fruit
4 Small Reese's Cups

Breakfast:
Grape-Nuts
Banana
Milk
Coffee

Dinner
Was sort of a rolling affair.

Had one slice of pizza at Jillian's
(temptations abounded as I also hung out with Will at Discover Mills Mall)

then home to a few slices of orange, a banana, a cuba libre and two cookies.

I'll be all right.

Lunch:
Turkey sandwich
Leftover nachos
Cookies
Brownies

I think that was a bit much. Careful tonight. I've got a kid's birthday party to go to...doubtless cake & ice cream opportunities, and more. The answer is "No, thanks."

Last night's Dinner:
Nachos
Salad
Beer

Hmmm....3AM again. Might've been the beers

Breakfast:
Oatmeal
Toast
Coffee
Juice

Lunch:
Grapefruit sections (bit of sticker shock here: paid $1for the things, but they were nicely sectioned and skinned so they were purr-fect.)
Trusoy bar

It's occurred to me that the approach to dieting that sells so many people is one that says, "lose weight without depriving yourself." That's backwards. I have to learn how much food your body really needs, and recognize the situations that trigger compulsive eating, and master the impulse to eat when I'm not physically hungry. Of *course* it feels like deprivation...I'm depriving myself of that method of fulfilling that impulse. But the impulse is growing smaller and weaker by the day.

Snack attack!
5 Mentos

Too much information dept.:
I think I paid really heavily for that presbyterian sauce last night. Least I hope that's what it was.

Breakfast:
QIO
Coffee

Dinner:
Chicken breast w/presbyterian sauce
Frozen Broccoli
Mac & Cheese
Cookies

2 Dove Eggs
A Starbucks

Lunch:
Trusoy bar
Banana
Water

Will probably have a coffee later on.

Last night's dinner:
Pancakes
Scrambled Eggs
3 cookies

Breakfast:
Small cheese grits
Smoked sausage (I actually threw away a few bites!)
(It helped that the sausage was kinda gross. Still good, but kinda gross.)

Lunch:
Trusoy Crispy Soy Bar -- 200 Calories, 5g of fat (2g saturated)
Banana
Coffee
Water

Last night's dinner:
Chicken Breast in sauce over noodles (small portion)
Salad

Snack attack tried to get me later in the night; I managed to palm it off with a couple of red-hots.

Breakfast:
Quaker Instant Oatmeal

I managed to hit the mix just right so that it was nice and moist but not watery today (hey, I don't measure unless I'm *cooking*). I must say that is a good, filling breakfast. Only 140 calories and 2.5 grams of fat.

Lunch:
Nachos! Nachos! Nachos!
2 Dove Eggs

Man, that was good.

Too Much Information Dept.:
Ketosis has begun, as I discovered in the bathroom this morning.

New server today! No more ads!

Breakfast:
QIO
Coffee

Dinner:
Ham Sandwich
Chips & Salsa
Smoothies
4 Cookies

Maybe 5.

I don't *think* that blows me out for the day. I mean...nothing nothing nothing and then a meal with a large-ish dessert. Naah, I'm ok. I do need to examine why I did it. The first 2 were realy dessert. The last 2 or 3 were compulsive...but I'm glad I stopped myself after that. There are many, many more, and ice cream, also, where that came from.

Lunch:
Tru-Soy "Double Chocolate Delight" Soy Protein Bar

Breakfast:
QIO
Coffee

Actually got to work an hour ago, just now got hungry. I thought I would last until lunch, but I don't feel bad about eating now.

Lunch:
Baked Chicken Breast
Greens
Field Peas
Garlic Toast
Sweet Potatoes
Salad

Huge lunch at the in-laws...THEN

Dinner:
A number 13. (Burrito, Enchilad, Chile Relleno)
Chips

Yes, today was a blow-out. Back to the grindstone tomorrow.

Oh, I weighed myself yesterday at the club. I'm down 2 pounds!

Breakfast:
Grape Nut O's
Banana
Coffee

I toasted a bagel but there was no cream cheese. I considered eating it anyway but I didn't want it! I would've choked it down a few weeks back.

Dinner:
Hamburger
2 Beers
Mac & Cheese
Salad
Cupcake

Big of a pigout, but I'll be fine. And the whole day was kind of good so I'm not worried.

Oh, I went to the pool with Will.

Breakfast:
Frosted Shredded Wheat
Milk
Banana
Danish
Coffee

Lunch:
Frankfurter
Corn on the cob
Chips & Salsa

Worked out at the club this morning before lunch. I think Lunch might have been a compulsive eating episode...I wasn't really hungry.

...a CADBURY CREAM EGG.

Dinner:
Pizza
Salad
Canteloupe
Water

Lunch:
Vegetarian Chili
Chips
Water

The brownie & ice cream were delicious.

Breakfast:
A banana
Coffee

I was really hungry when I woke up this morning. I noticed that by the time I reached 5Points, the hunger was not nearly as great. (It's my practice not to eat before leaving for work. Sometimes that creates problems.)

Wait out the hunger...that's the thing.

Dinner:
Steak (small piece)
Linguini & Shrimp
Salad
Bread stick

I'll probably have a brownie with ice cream tonight. Mein tummy is agreeably full but there's ample space for a little dessert.

Lunch:
Trusoy Bar

(Iced Lemon...not as good as the peanut butter one I had earlier this week. The Double Chocolate awaits. Maybe tomorrow, maybe next week. I'm going to stock up on more of these things. Pantry price is 3/$2.00. Maybe I'll make a deal on a whole box.)

Water

My tummy is happy. I might go get a cup of coffee, maybe a banana later.

Snack:
1 Girl Scout Cookie

Breakfast:
QIO
Coffee
Water

Home:
Slice o'Quesadilla
Choco-banana muffin
Swig o' Smoothie

Then, off to karate w/Will

Dinner:
Quesadilla
Soup
Apple slices

Lunch:
Roast Chicken
Rice
Broccoli
Fig Newtons (thanks, Bob!)

Lunch: from yesterday
Nachos
2 Girl Scout Cookies...the hawaiian ones.

(I keep accidentally posting food to my main blog)

A mint w/water.

I'm not going to habitually post mints unless I have a snack attack that causes me to eat say 10 of them right in a row. But I like this post because this is the time I might have eaten a donut or something ... without Blogger!

Dinner: from last night
Hot Dogs (prepared by Will)
Fries
Brocco Salad

Breakfast today:
Banana/Chocolate Chip Muffin (small!)

Had me a Starbucks and then a prasad from a Hindu friend of mine. It was yummy. Them Hindis know their candy! This one seemed to be a chocolate-covered toffee log rolled in crushed almonds. MMMM!

I'm thinking I'll request a smoothy for dinner. Then...off to Karate with Will!

Breakfast:
QIO
Coffee
Water
A Girl Scout Cookie (trefoil?)...some mendicant left a pack of them in the kitchenette to attack me.

Dinner:
Pizza
Soup
Broccoli Salad from the '70's
Ice Cream Cone

Huzzah! Homeward bound with nary a snack attack. I was gratifyingly hungry throughout the afternoon, but nothing I couldn't deal with. I had a cup of tea a minute ago and will truly enjoy my supper.

Also had a good bit of stress from home today, the kind ($$, what else?) that would normally send me into the arms of Little Debbie. Vile hussy! Your hohos and devil squares are as bitter gall in my mouth!

Lunch:
Trusoy crispy soy bar. Pretty good. I make no promises, but this could last me the afternoon. We'll see.

Breakfast:
Quaker Instant Oatmeal
Coffee

I brought a box of QIO pax to work and I'm going to try breakfasting on that.

I also brought a few "power bars" or "protein bars" or whatever the Xers are eating nowadays. I figure if I feel like a lite lunch I can eat those instead of whatever I bring in the tupperware. So, today's question: which will win, the roast chicken or the power bar?

New format starting today. I've set blogger to post chronologically within date.

No breakfast...got up and had coffee, then off to church. So I might say:

Breakfast:
Bread
Wine

I was nice and hungry during the service. That feeling is still with me. Lunch is coming up, and it will be good. But it's not like it's an "emergency." That was the feeling during services...I was hungry, and it was ok, pleasant.

Oh, I should mention I worked out yesterday (lightly with weights, slowly on the recumbent bike. Don't want to hurt myself.) I'm hoping I can add workouts to this page. I just have to figure out when to go. I feel like if I get up an hour earlier (6 instead of 7) and head right for the club, I'll still wind up later at work than I want to be.

Maybe instead of trying to figure it out, I could just try it and see how it goes.

Lunch:
Vegetarian Chili
Bread Sticks
Mac & Cheese
Chips & Salsa

Went to the movies w/Will. 1/2 a small popcorn, 1/2 a diet coke, and a big ol' honkin' movie pack of Butterfingers.

Dinner:
Noshed on the chicken & rice I gave the kids.
2 Peeps

Had a brownie and ice cream later, during "9/11".

OK, so I've got a sweet tooth. I hope I helped myself by not overeating at meals.

Breakfast
Bagel & CC (left 1/4)
KK Chocolate Creme donut
(ate the girls' leftover donuts to, about a bite each)
Coffee
Juice

1 peep. That's right...not a whole package of peeps. Not a row. (These are the denominations I usually work with.) 1 peep. Gave Will 2 and Ashton 1.

It was easy.

Lunch:
Beans & Mac & Cheese
Donut
Cookie
Ice Tea

Dinner:
Ate at the Meeks's...
Beef Stew w/Rice
Bread Sticks
Daiquiri
Dr. Pepper & Rum.

Thank you, Blogger! This is the kind of accountability that really helps me.

Left off of last night:
I ate the last of Will's spaghetti. It's interesting to me that I left that off. Yes, I forgot it while blogging...was I even aware of it while doing it?

Breakfast:
I think skipping breakfast yesterday might have contributed to my extra eating in the afternoon. So even though I wasn't terribly hungry, I noshed on Frosted Wheat Squares throughout the morning. I feel my lunch-hunger approaching now...very interesting. I have a banana and an orange in case the munchies hit me this afternoon.

Lunchtime:
I think I just had a conceptual breakthrough.

At my desk right now are the following food items:

1. 1 Orange
   
2. 1 Banana


3. 1 Single-Serving pack of Fig Newtons


4. 2 Hershey's Chocolate Kisses


5. 1 Star Brite Mint

Now. Why, pray tell, knowing about all that food, was I walking down the hall thinking, "Hmmm...I'm hungry...time to go get some lunch." I am going to eat the above listed items and it will be my lunch. Why not? Not a bad lunch, really. Nothing green but I can get some greens at home tonight, I think.

I need to expand my food repertoire. That is, foods I think of as comprising a "meal". That way I might not feel quite so tempted to go get something dark and heavy if better foods are available.

14:00
That was a FINE lunch. Just FINE.

I also just had me a Mocha Java. I feel like I'll be ok until dinner.

Had a cookie and whiskey when I got home...

Dinner:
Nachos (I refuse to say "Nacho Pie")
Salad & Dressing
Water

Waiting for the hunger! I might have a cuppa coffee or something, but I'm going to try the WDW technique of waiting until I experience actual hunger, not just a "desire to eat." This helps keep me mindful of how much I eat when I'm not hungry, hopefully permitting me to cut down on that.

It's 8:26. I'm somewhat mildly hungry but I have awhile to go before I'm really hungry.

10:03 I really, really wanted to eat a minute ago...but I'm not hungry! I cadged a Dove egg from a coworker's stash (she keeps them out for that purpose) and it was jolly good. I refuse to feel guilty about that.

Lunch:
(I got hungry at about 11:30, just as a meeting let out.)
Black Bean Soup
1 oz. Andy Capp Hot Fries
Banana
Water

So I just finished that entry when I got called into a meeting. Took a mint with me and sucked that through the meeting, and now I'm eating 4 Frosted Shredded Wheat squares. Thank you, Blogger!

2 more Dove eggs
2 more Frosted Shredded Wheat Squares.

It's the long afternoon does it to me. I've got to work something out here. I'm glad the above doesn't read "pack of zingers", and hopefully tonight won't include "4 cookies" (maybe 1?) but it's still not ideal. It's obvious I'm eating compulsively.

Dinner:
Italian Sausage Parmigiana Sub
Beer

Went to Will's PTA evening, where they had a bake sale going so I ate a small piece of Duncan Hines instant brownie. Then ate a Choco Chip cookie at home.

Breakfast:
1.5C Cheese grits (small slice of cheese!)
Coffee

Lunch:
BBQ Chicken Breast
1/2 baked potato
Roll
Water
Mocha Java (mmm...instant hot chocolate dissolved in coffee!)

I grabbed a couple of star mints. I think they'll be better than the caramels...at least better for my teefs!

14:13: Heh. Star Mints working fine, caramel-wise, but I also ate a Thin Mint! Who says you can't eat just one? I carried it around in my shirt pocket for a couple minutes before eating it. Need a pithy aphorism here about shirt pockets adding sauce to the Thin Mint...

In my defense, I'd just come out of an interminable time-wasting meeting. At least I didn't walk down to the cafeteria and buy a pack of Zingers!

Home:1 choco chip cookie, then on to Karate!

After Karate:Another choco chip...supper wasn't ready and I dashed to Choir

Dinner: (late)
Nachos
2 cookies
Water

2 caramels

Dinner:
Chicken Breast
Bread Stick
Salad w/Ken's Creamy Tomato Bacon dressing
Baked Potato
2 Chocolate chip cookies

1 (1!) Girl Scout Cookie during Buffy

OK, that cookie count is higher than I want it to be...but lower than it would've been if I weren't going to write it down.

Didn't. Yum.

OK, you're reading this and thinking that maybe this guy eats too many sweets. You don't know the half of it. I could have eaten my box of Girl Scout Cookies this morning for a snack, and probably would have if I didn't have to write them down. I will try not to eat more cookies tonight, but won't make any guarantees.

Well, one guarantee: I'll write it down here if I do.

Lunch:
Peanut Butter & Jelly Sandwich
Broccoli Casserole
3 Choco Chip Cookies (might save them for the afternoon)

Girl Scout Cookies are in! I'm going to take home the box I bought today and share it with the kids, maybe have one or two. And...NOTHING ELSE.

Lord, help me to remember that it is you, and not food, that I need to focus on.

This prayer came to me unbidden on the train this morning. I lost 50 pounds on Weigh Down Workshop and this is something like the prayers its founder, Gwen Shamblin, has us pray. I've gained a good bit of it back and it's not Gwen's fault, but I just don't see myself as being as focused on God-instead-of-food as she would have us be. I learned many valuable behavioral techniques in WDW, and I learned many spiritual things as well, but (and I'm sure I'm misstating much of WDW orthodoxy) the notion that God is the only substitute for food, and that God is the only power we need to overcome our food addiction, doesn't stick with me. I'm reminded of the man on his roof, waiting for God to save him from the flood. He'd ignored the orders to evacuate; he knew that God would save him. A rescue boat comes by, and the man says, "No, I don't need you. My faith is great. God will save me." The waters rise and force him onto his chimney. A helicopter comes and drops him a ladder. A rescuer comes down to him on the ladder but the man says, "Go and save someone else with lesser faith; I know that God will keep me safe." He is finally washed away in the flood and drowns. He arrives in Heaven and sees God. "God, my faith was great! Why did you not rescue me?" God's response: "What are you talking about? I sent an evacuation order, a boat and a helicopter!"

This weblog is like the rescue boat. Gwen (at least in first year WDW) tells us not to write down our food, and not to count calories, etc., but I enjoy this and the accountability appeals to me.

Next thing you know, I'll be posting my weight...

Breakfast:
Frosted Shredded Wheat
Banana
Half-pint Skim Milk
Coffee

Breakfast is my best meal. It is very, very rare for me to blow it out at breakfast.

Breakfast:
Frosted Shredded Wheat
Banana
Half-pint 2% Milk
Coffee

1 Goetze's caramel
1 Kraft caramel

Lunch:
2 C. Black Bean Soup
1 oz. Andy Capps Hot Fries
Water

OK, comes the long afternoon. I'm hoping that having to write it down will prevent my usual slide toward the donut machine.

14:20
Hard peppermint candy

Home:
Small whiskey

Dinner
Chicken Pot Pie
Broccoli Casserole
3 Chocolate Chip Cookies

I made it through the afternoon without a snack attack. I think this helped. But I don't know. Let's keep working on it.